After the total lunar eclipse
Madaya. Unfair.
I could then remember how I used to be that stronger individual when I was in my younger days. The only incident perhaps that I could recount that I shed a tear was when my mother and I had some bonding session, and we ended up crying because I mirrored na pala already how she felt at the moment.
Yeah. Kung kailan naman tumanda ako, tsaka nman ako naging iyakin. The irony of it all. These past few days,or months so to speak, I have almost cried at almost everything,whether they may be that deep, or not-that-deep. I could have branded myself a cry-baby,only I'm already matanda. The hard part is that I don't choose places. While walking along Shaw Blvd endlessly, while eating a "Happy meal" (darn the name), or paying a fare. Kanina nga, out of the sorry environment,naiyak na lang ako. Nahiya na lang ako sa matanda kanina, who had to endure the whole trip with me, and thanks for the kleenex.
Maybe I was self-pitying again. Sometimes I just want to find another me. If God would grant me an only wish,that would be for me to find a Randyh. Really. It's just so hard and it pains me that much na maging doubtful ka. Sana walang ganun. Yun lang nman yung hinihingi ko e.
Hay. So much for this one. Hindi na nman ako makakatulog. And for sure, aabutin na nman ako ng tukso kay kuya. Pangit na mata sa umaga.
*sigh*
Labels: Must have been carried away by the eclipse..
posted by Randyh @ Wednesday, March 07, 2007
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